Time

You came into my life
At a bad time
When I truly hated who I was
And what I had become
I was broken, damaged, and fading.

But you fought your way in
And you saved me

You loved me
And by doing so
You gave me the strength
To love me too

Now there's laughter in all of our days
For we have grown stronger
We have learned to push our grief away
Of every single day
For we know that tomorrow may never come
And that our goodnight may well be our last goodbye...

Our time on Earth is precious.  That is the most important life lesson I have learned. I'm so fortunate to have been given this knowledge at at young age.  We all need to take time to pamper ourselves, spend more time with family and the ones we love most.  Each and every one of us will regret it if we don't. Yes, we all need jobs to pay the bills, but we don't need jobs that ruin relationships with our significant others, our children, our friends, and so on. Balance is always a challenge to find in life, but it is absolutely worth fighting for.  Make sure your number one priority/priorities know how important they are before time takes the away.  We only get one shot at life.  Take your time, and make sure to hit that bullseye!

Live like you were dying

How does one live like they are dying when it hurts too much to do the simplest of tasks?  Walking is a challeng because of the 30-40 pounds of tumors in each of my legs, certain noises cause excruciating pain because of the excessive ringing and swooshing sounds in my ears.  Worst of all I can't enjoy the food I would like to eat.  It either makes me physically sick, or I struggle to swallow it and the pain takes over the enjoyment of a nice meal.  We must not forget all of the financial stresses and struggles life weighs us all down with.  Everything and anything comes with a price tag that seems to be going up with each passing year!  Sheesh, I sound like a world-class crybaby.  I'm sorry for complaining about my personal problems.  All of us face struggles on a daily basis.  That brings me to a question I have been pondering quite a bit lately.  Why is life so difficult for some people and a breeze for others?  I know that many people put on a facade for the world to see and it's a much different story behind the scenes.  That leads me to another question.  Why are so many of us afraid to be our "true selves".  We hide behind masks, stories, theories, reputations, family histories, etc.  We are all individuals. We should act that way.  I know it's much easier said than done.  I'm terrified of what people think of me.  If someone looks at me strangely I will feel uncomfortable for the rest of the day, or at least until I get home and take an upper...ha!

I truly envy those who love whom they are.  Those whom embrace their quirks and "march to the beat of their own drum".  Continue being unique, eccentric, eclectic, and real.  Forge forward with your message and your unwavering acceptance.  Hopefully one day the rest of the world will follow.

When Life Gets in the Way

I am sorry I have been absent lately.  Life has been throwing me many curveballs, twists, and an abundance of turns.  I'm no longer sure which way is up, or which is down.  I must admit I am terrified, incredibly anxious, hurting, both physically and mentally.  I have many decisions to make in the near future.  I could have never imagined I would be in this position at this time in my life.  I am living in a fog right now, but I am searching for clarity.  Once I find it I will return to a more often writing schedule.  I miss blogging, but I would never publish material unworthy of reading.  You all deserve better than that.  I only want to share with each of you my best.  Thank you all for your continued support and encouragement!

I would like to share some words and phrases that have inspired me.

When you have a really bad day,
Try to treat the world better than it had treated you.

Always hold on to hope.
When you feel your hope is lost find a shoulder to lean on.
You'd be surprised where you can find the love you need.

Teardrops

If I showed you my teardrops,

Would you collect them like rain,

Store them in jars,

That are labeled with "Pain",

Would you follow their tracks,

From my eyes down my cheeks,

As they write all the stories, 

I'm too scared to speak,

Would you stop them with kisses,

Bring their flow to a halt,

As you teach me that pain,

Isn't always my fault,

Would you hold my face gently,

As you dry both my eyes

And whisper the words,

"You're too precious to cry",

If I showed you my teardrops,

Would you show me your own?

And learn though we're lonely,

We are never alone.

As long as we allow love in our lives, we all have a constant companion.

Never be afraid to love and let yourself be loved.