Just Keep Swimming

Normally when I make a move, or a big life change I tend to reflect and dwell on the past.  I worry myself until I’m nauseas because I'm so terrified about making the wrong decision.  This time is very different.  I not scared, or nervous about being in a new area with new doctors.  I am looking forward to taking advantage of the opportunities Memphis has to offer.  I’m also ready for the challenges that lie ahead of me.   It still makes me laugh at how many people ask me how I can be so happy and cheerful while going through all of these medical issues.  Am I supposed to live in a box?  Am I supposed to succumb to my cancer?  I refuse to do that!  I will keep fighting day-after-day with a smile on my face.  I am going to try and put as many smiles as I can on the faces of nurses, doctors, and fellow patients everyday.  The smiles and witty banter brings just as much joy to me as I hope it does to the others.   The “old Meg” used to take the small pleasures in life for granted.  Now I cherish those moments.  I love that my husband kisses me goodbye before he leaves for work each morning.  I love that I get to hug him everyday when he gets home.  I love talking on the phone, text messaging, and emailing my friends and family.  It puts a huge smile on my face to hear my mom laugh on the other end of the phone.  I love that I can ask my dad any question imaginable, and he’ll have an answer for me.  He's an extremely intellegent man but sometimes he might be feeding me complete bull, but I believe every word.  My parents really are my heros.  I also love that my sister and I can send each other random movie quotes via text, just to brighten each other’s day.  I have the most incredible, and supportive family, as well as, an amazing group of friends! I have made a promise to myself to live the rest of my life to the fullest.  I don’t know if this disease will cut my life short, or if I will beat this once and for all.  Either way, I am happy with the way I am living my life.  I am finally following my true passions.  My life has made a sharp turn off the path I thought I was traveling, but I’m enjoying the path I’m on the best I can.  This path has come with many difficulties, but it has also come with wonderful memories, and made some of my dreams come true.  There is no doubt that there will be many more challenges ahead.  I’m ready to face them head on because I know I have an amazing support system behind me.  I am going to steal a quote from Finding Nemo. It is very fitting for my lifestyle.  ”Just keep swimming, just keep swimming”.