Live like you were dying

How does one live like they are dying when it hurts too much to do the simplest of tasks?  Walking is a challeng because of the 30-40 pounds of tumors in each of my legs, certain noises cause excruciating pain because of the excessive ringing and swooshing sounds in my ears.  Worst of all I can't enjoy the food I would like to eat.  It either makes me physically sick, or I struggle to swallow it and the pain takes over the enjoyment of a nice meal.  We must not forget all of the financial stresses and struggles life weighs us all down with.  Everything and anything comes with a price tag that seems to be going up with each passing year!  Sheesh, I sound like a world-class crybaby.  I'm sorry for complaining about my personal problems.  All of us face struggles on a daily basis.  That brings me to a question I have been pondering quite a bit lately.  Why is life so difficult for some people and a breeze for others?  I know that many people put on a facade for the world to see and it's a much different story behind the scenes.  That leads me to another question.  Why are so many of us afraid to be our "true selves".  We hide behind masks, stories, theories, reputations, family histories, etc.  We are all individuals. We should act that way.  I know it's much easier said than done.  I'm terrified of what people think of me.  If someone looks at me strangely I will feel uncomfortable for the rest of the day, or at least until I get home and take an upper...ha!

I truly envy those who love whom they are.  Those whom embrace their quirks and "march to the beat of their own drum".  Continue being unique, eccentric, eclectic, and real.  Forge forward with your message and your unwavering acceptance.  Hopefully one day the rest of the world will follow.