All of me

Sometimes I wonder how you do it.
How can you sit back watching the intense pain and emotional hurt destroy me.
Without an ounce of guilt, or compassion
You do things to me, about me, or without me ever knowing.
And you still look at me the same way you always have
With those eyes so poignantly searching for the answers inside me
The answers I ache to hear.

You want all of me.
I have nothing left to give.
You want to know how I feel
And if I am truly hurting inside.
All you have to do is ask.
I will tell you.
I will let you know that this has been the first pain to consume my entire life.
I will tell you that you were the one who took my heart and locked it away.
My heart is hidden and numb from the on-going series of set-backs.
You placed my fingers in between each of yours.
But, in the end,
You took my heart and you shredded it to pieces.
You could have just ripped it in half.
Then it would be easier to put back together.
But instead,
You destroyed it.
Piece by piece you shredded it.
And no one can fix it.
No one wants to.
Because they look at what I have become.
A girl with permanent tears painted on my face.

I am now just an empty void.
There is no desire, or want to continue this way.
Because now there is only the fear of ruining
what I have tried so hard to build up.
The fight has left me weak and febble. 
I no longer know were to turn
The light at the end of the tunnel weakens daily.
I just barely see it.
All hope is lost, the darkness will soon be all that is left.

Cancer has not just changed me, it has changed all those around me.
It has taken away more that I could have ever imagined
And left me but a shell of the person I once was.
Live everyday day as if it is your last. 
Life is so fragile, it can be taken from you in the blink of an eye.
Find your peace.
Find your comfort.
Never let anyone, or anything take that from you.